Post number One. The explanation.
Tomorrow will be the start of my 'recreation'
I have spent as long as I can remember finding fault after fault with the way I look; my weight, my skin, my nails, the way I dress, everything.
Now it's time for a change. Time to conquer my demons and be who I want to be not who my habits have made me.
So whats on the table here;
A lot of bad habits. My weight bounces up and down constantly and I never feel like I'm in control of my eating habits. Mood dependent my eating can compulsive to one extreme or the other. It's been that way ever since I can remember. There have been times when I've been classed as 'underweight' - though I have to admit these were when I felt most comfortable in my skin and really liked how I looked - but most of the time my weight has been how it is now, overweight. The way I feel when I look like this is just awful. It stops me from being me.
What I need to stop is my compulsive eating habits and this will take time. I know I'm going mess up occasionally but the idea is of the blog is a little self support. Perhaps through my posts I can learn form the times I mess up and figure out my triggers.
I was recently told that I had several food intolerances which could affect my metabolism, lethargy levels and general digestion. I haven't done a great job so far at cutting these out of my diet (in fact I've not really cut them out at all). They could make all the difference so it's silly not to really. They are, wheat, cheese, and red meat. So, they go and in there place comes more fruit, salads, and vegtables.
It's not just about my weight. It's my fitness too. I used to love to run. I just seem to have let it go. Time to get it back.
So, from here onwards I will aim to write everyday. Maybe several times a day if required. I will keep a record of my weight (eeek), what I've eaten (calories as accurately as I can), how much I've had to drink (thats water by the way), and how much exercise I've done.
Watch this space I guess...
